Day 49 #SelfReflection60 – Enough

Drawing of a boy, mole, fox and horse sitting on the ground.
From “The boy, the mole, the fox and the horse” by Charlie Mackesy.
https://www.charliemackesy.com/

“What’s your best discovery?” asked the mole.
“That I’m enough as I am” said the boy.

Oh, this one makes me uncomfortable today.  Whenever I hear someone saying that phrase that they are “enough”, I don’t know what it means.  It makes my stomach clench and flip over.  It makes me feel like a fraud and a liar.  Something inside me screams against it, I don’t know how to be “enough as I am”. 

Does this make me heavily reliant on others? Not generally I don’t think, but there are elements that I need to make me feel whole.  If I were ‘enough’ then I wouldn’t need reassurance, I wouldn’t crave the feeling of belonging, I wouldn’t be desperate to feel needed or wanted.  These things are always there for me.  Even when I’ve lived alone, when I didn’t have any friends or family close to me, I had to throw myself into work to feel useful and productive.  Maybe the word ‘enough’ is preceded by ‘good’ in my head.  Maybe it’s not clear enough analytically for me.  I clearly need to dig at this little painful root twisted around inside of me, I need to find ways to accept myself.

What is ‘enough’?

Can you say, “I’m enough as I am”?

What does it mean to you?

Published by Snowysel

A people person looking to get back into the HR game. Married, no kids, loves animals, voracious reader, Highland heart.

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